Facing The Truth (KJV)

At the age of twelve, I entered a Capuchin convent. I was looking for truth in a setting which I thought would help me to find God. The convent was located on the outskirts of Madrid, Spain, the city where I was born. Thus, with this life in the convent I began my pilgrimage toward God through the denial of all rights to myself. The theory of mortification is very ancient and is closely associated with Roman Catholic thought. Moreover, the philosophical mysticism of Spain embraces the practice of mortification as the method whereby one may find God. “To mortify” means to die slowly. That which dies is one’s own personality.After several years of preparation and at the age of seventeen, I took the vows of obedience. I renounced all right to personal control to everything. He who is perfectly obedient submits to one mind and to one will: that is, the mind and will of his superior. In a convent it is impossible to do anything which is not controlled. Carefully defined laws and declaration